Rejoice! You have Him.

This has been a strange "season" in my walk with the Lord. It is almost like the two are joining together... the "good" season and the "hard" season. And it feels good. It feels real, feels like life.

Lately I have been feeling like things haven't been going my way... whether it be health, financial, relational... I have just been feeling like I have a case of bad luck (metaphorically. I don't actually believe in "luck"). It has been hard to come to the Lord at times because I feel bitter or upset that He would with hold things that my heart desires or not bless me "right now" with the plans that I have for my life, even though they are about Him and for Him, I am not allowing Him to lead, I am not waiting on Him. Let's talk about waiting... isn't it the worst?! I was born in raised in a county where you don't have to wait, if I want Del Taco, I get Del Taco. If I want to go see a movie, I go see a movie. I don't have to wait to often for anything, so when I do its annoying and hard cause I am not used to it and don't fully understand it.

And it is the time of waiting, Advent is upon us, where we wait in expectation of the birth of Jesus. I feel like I am in expectation of something being born. So all this is great to talk about but what do we do... what do we do while we wait? How do we think? How do we act? How do we look while we wait?

We seek God. Always.

Through all of this I am so thankful that I can seek God, I am so thankful that He is always there. His Word always brings life, He is always listening, He is always comforting, He is always there. You may not aggree with that last statement but it is true. He is always there, He is always waiting and available for us. Where are we? That is the statement we should ponder. I can't tell you how grateful I am that I have been chosen. That the Lord has already saved me, that I am walking in the resurrection now... I think about all the people who haven't encountered the love of God YET and I am heartbroken but I also rejoice and praise Him that I am and I have and I continue to have the opportunity to walk in freedom, joy, security and peace.

Peace has been huge lately for me. The other night when I was praying for people I couldn't stop praying peace over people. I really feel the Lord impressing that on my heart and on the people around me. That we are to be people of peace and that He is the Prince of Peace. I am so thankful for that! I have been so overwhelmed lately and anxious and worried, which I usually don't deal with a lot so it's been a new thing and I have really just been to the point where it's up to me. I can chose peace, I can chose trust and I can chose God or I can chose worry, chose fear, and chose faithlessness. What it comes down to, your choice.

Chose trust. Chose Him. He is there, when all else fails, you have Him. He is all that matters. His comfort stretches farther than the oceans. Praying that you rest in Him. Chose trust. Chose Him. Always.