What Do I Want To Be When I Grow Up

I hear this a lot. I think about this a lot. I am asked this a lot.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

It's funny. I usually laugh and ask, do you not think I am grown up!? I almost feel like it is the question "What do you want to be when you stop doing what you are doing and do something else that I label and consider to be a financially stable job?"

Ew. Just the whole idea...ew. The Lord has been revealing so much of Himself to me that all I ever want to be is a poured out offering, a channel for people to receive rest, an encourager who speaks life and blessing, a warrior on the front lines for the Gospel and for the lost and broken. I want to be light. I have the brightest light inside of me and all I want to do is be a window for that Light to shine threw. That is all. Easy enough right?

No. Haha. I find myself, along with many others my age being held back. Whether it is our own doing (for me, usually always is) or by other burdens that I really feel the enemy using to keep us stagnant (physically). I have been spiritually moving, flowing, and inspired and compelled more in the past half year than I have ever... but physically, I feel stuck. Spiritually I am ready for anything and want to do anything and everything to proclaim the Gospel but the physical part of it is lacking.

I definitely feel that the Lord has been growing my boldness and revealing to me how big He is and how just important He is, that the physical part is simply out of obedience. Like worship... sometimes I don't "feel" like worshipping cause I am tired or hot (I hate sweating while I worship!) but I choose, always to raise my hands in worship. Not because I feel like it but as an act of obedience.

And that is how I feel about evangelism and the Gospel. I always want to do this crazy, awesome thing for Christ and I know I can and I will... however the Lord has placed so many small things in front of me to evangelize through, or tell the Gospel through. There are people all around us, at Target, at the Mall, in your house! Be bold and ask them for prayer, ask them if they know Christ in a personal way.

So until I have my awesome Jesus adventure I know will take place I am going to be a poured out offering on my current adventure of Ladera Ranch, CA. No matter where you are I believe you can and will do amazing things to advance the Gospel and bring back the lost sheep. May the Lord empower you with a Spirit of boldness and courage, may He reveal the vastness of His love through you and may your eyes, ears, heart, mind, soul, and body be open to His leading and always saying Yes. In Christ, Amen.

The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor;[a]
he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives,
and the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
Isaiah 61:1