Timing in the Falling

I feel like everything right now is falling apart in my life... not necessarily in a bad way but I do feel like I am in a very transitional stage and I feel many things falling apart gradually so that new things can be gathered. It is a tough spot and to be quite honest I hate it. It hurts. A lot. I am not a huge fan of change, especially in relationships and I always find myself coming to God asking Him why He would let that happen if only to take it away or make it hurt or bring pain or let it be something hard to let go and I feel Him saying that I should be happy for the love I felt with that person, or the fellowship I experienced at that community, or the opportunity to see that part of the world... and it is something I struggle with. I get lost in this whirlwind of emotion, hurt, and pain and I forget that it was all His to begin with. That that person is His, that community is His, that country is His... it is all His. Letting go and denying that part of my flesh is one of my hugest struggles. I must trust and rest in His work and His plan and His timing and I need to find it in my Spirit and not my flesh to rejoice. I need to live rejoicing. I can't imagine not rejoicing and smiling through hurt and pain... I would go insane. So here is a scripture and some quotes that have helped and comforted me through this brand new season of change and transition.

To everything there is a season,

A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8



There is no circumstance, no trouble, no testing, that can ever touch me until it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with great purpose, which I may not understand at the moment. But I refuse to become panicky, as I lift my eyes to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart.